Came to my senses at Dayspring through yoga prayer; sensed shalom with Ruthie’s last words “It’s so beautiful” same words my heart sang on each Dayspring visit. Yet lacked a sense of direction at work though I was Activity Director at Bedford Court; at home, though daughters and others thrived there; at church, though I attended two or more most weeks. Lacked common sense to slow down and grieve: kept square-dancing, going to concerts, plays, movies; all my senseless yearnings centered on one man who gave me a sensible diagnosis after ten months— “no chemistry, too judgmental”. Meanwhile I bought a 15 passenger van and built the Dayshare Newsletter mailing list. Renewed friendships at 25 year Calvin College reunion and grew new ones with Margee Iddings at Rising Phoenix.